Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Under the influence of what?

      Hello my name is Candice Hamilton, many of you that follow Angie's blog have come to know me as "C".  I hope you all can bare with me as I try to share my story with you, for I am not nearly the writer or as spiritually mature as Angie. Writing this is a mere effort to try and reach the heart of someone or maybe even a handful  of people that can relate to my journey. A journey of  sadness and joys, losses and gains, lies and truth, and thankfully the grace and mercy of God.  I used to feel unsettled all the time, never at peace, always trying to fill a void with all the wrong things.  When the whole time all I needed was right there and everywhere. I allowed myself to be under the influence of so many other things; alcohol,  drugs, people, my own pain, I began to drown. After I reached what I decided was my rock bottom, I stood exposed, naked and ashamed, with arms open and asked God to forgive me,  to come into my heart and heal my broken spirit. It took loosing all I had to finally gain everything, and for that I am so thankful at this moment to have lost it all.  Now, under the influence of Jesus Christ, my head is above water and the picture is becoming more and more clear everyday.
        

                 My husband and I met on April 13, 2002 and were married in December of 2004. We met working at the same restaurant in a small town in Michigan where we both grew up and lived our whole life until now. When I met Jason he had a handful of tee-shirts, one pair of  ripped jeans, a guitar in one hand and a whiskey bottle in the other, what can I say....I was sold. It was his artistic and mysterious free spirit  that I was attracted to, accompanied with a beautiful, gentle soul that put my heart in a tail spin. The problem with he and I surfaced after alcohol  was thrown in the mix. Not only is my husband an alcoholic, but he has a terrible temper after he drinks as well. As the stresses of mortgage payment, car payment, working opposite shifts, a new baby on 07, and constant family drama became more and more suffocating our fighting became more and more violent. I couldn't take anymore, felt as if I had exhausted every option to try and save my marriage and filed for a divorce this past January in hopes to create a healthier environment for my children and myself. The months that followed are a blur of  chaos, I didn't know what a divorce really entailed. I'll never forget all the nights I spent pleading with God to forgive me for failing my marriage, wondering how a woman who was once a wife, walks through everyday no longer being a wife. While bearing a feeling of emptiness that consumed me it was all I could do during those months to get up some days. I tried to portray myself as doing better than I really was, throwing myself into a new relationship before grieving the death of my marriage or healing from all the traumatic instances that took place when Jason and I were at our worst.  I just was tired of everything being so hard, ready for a new start and wanted to live a fairy tale because I thought I deserved it after all I had been through. The months ahead would be the most scarring yet.  

               I moved out of my house January 1st into a tiny rental house until January 31st when Jason decided he didn't want it and he moved in an apartment two blocks down the road above the bar we both worked at. None of the bills were paid at our house and he, at this point, was refusing to see the kids because he was to sick and angry at me for seeing someone else. In march, I quit my job, I couldn't stand walking in and out of the same building Jason lived and worked to watch him kill himself drinking while refusing to see the girls. I went two months with no job and and no benefits and child support had not taken effect yet, to this day I'm not sure how I put food  on the table for the girls. I spent countless nights trying to sooth Savannah while she cried herself to sleep missing her daddy. The only thing I ever told her about her dad was that he was sick. I sold my wedding ring at a pawn shop for 1 hundred dollars to replace a tire on my van and sold various other things at pawn shops  to buy diapers and groceries.  Living this way really lowers a persons standards, I was brought down to a lower than low feeling I had never experienced. I lost every sense of right from wrong, and didn't know what "normal" or acceptable was anymore. My councilor has recently told me that when you sin, it gives the devil a license to your soul. That Satan wants to destroy your relationship with yourself, God and all those you love and I allowed every bit of that to happen. There are no words to describe just how conflicted and depressed I became.       
            
                
              It was mid June, just a few short months ago, that I walked into my christian counselors office, Kristen Hunsberger, grabbed a box of tissue looked at her and said that there was no hope for me, and that I was ready to give up. I will never forget the feeling of worthlessness that I had that day. I felt tainted, unclean and and so disgusted with myself I that I wanted out of my skin. My sense of self was gone, I could no longer do my job well, think straight or even love right. I had given away every piece of myself at such a cheap price, I had been dwindled down to nothing but a heart beat in the corner. So lost in my own pain and grief after months of a devastating divorce and countless disappointments all I could focus on were my failures. I was no longer that bubbly girl full of dreams and hope with a constant smile on my face accompanied with a loud familiar laugh to so many. I had reached a point that my friends, family, boyfriend and even soon to be ex husband (what a mess) were taking care of my children and I that week because I was so checked out. I thought my two sweet girls would be better off without me and deserved better than a mother like me. 
              As I explained all of this to Kristen, I remember waiting for her to agree with me because in my mind, my mistakes were to horrific for grace. Her response is still echoing in my mind to this day. She told me I had purpose, that I was a good person and that I would be redeemed through God's unconditional love.   I had a hard time believing her because everything I touched seemed to turn to black in the past year. Kristen and I agreed that I needed to leave Michigan, get out of the town and situation that I was in and start over in a healthier environment. She wanted me to do something radical and because at that point, that's what it was going to take. I really believe that if I would have stayed on the path I was on a that time, I would not be here today. 


Now, at the time that all this was going on I was seeing someone else, a military man that I had known since elementary school.  We will call him "A" . I would prefer to leave him out of this entirely, but it's to hard to explain all this without his mention. He was stationed at Fort Campbell so Tennessee was the ideal location for me to move to.  In addition to that, I had petitioned to the court in April to allow the girls and I to move to Tennessee.  It was granted by the court when Jason was defaulted due to the fact that he asked for no visitation and hadn't pursued seeing the girls for a month prior to court date. I'd like to add that I never looked at that day in the court room when I was petitioning to leave as a victory.  There is absolutely no victory in listening to the father of your children give up on the your kids. I sat listening to the one person who I thought loved our two girls as much as I did, the man who's eyes I looked into for strength as they came into this world, hoping he would fight for me and them. I sat shaking as he uttered every word, like he was waving a white flag, to sick or too uncaring to put his foot down. I wanted us to be worth fighting for. What he and no one else knew was that the whole time in court I gripped a picture in my trembling, sweaty palms of him holding our sweet Savannah the day we brought her home from the hospital in hopes that somewhere in him he would be able to not let go of that magical year we had after bringing her home, before it started to fall apart.  Even though they granted me permission to at that time, I chose to stay for numerous reasons, but mostly, even though I was pursuing a new relationship I couldn't quit let go.  When I told "A" that I needed to leave he offered to get an apartment where the girls and could move to into with him in Tennessee the  following weekend. I was so thankful and started packing. 
  

        Kristen had said after we had made our decision for me to leave that she would pursue a few other options for me in the mean time just in case I could not rely on "A" to provide a place for us to go. I received a call from her two days after my appointment and she said that I had the most incredible opportunity arise. She sounded so excited that she could have jumped through the phone. She explained that there was a family in Tennessee with children that were more than happy to let the girls and I to stay with them until I could get settled. I wasn't sure how to respond to the thought of moving in with strangers. She asked me if I ever read any blogs and I said no. Then she asked me if I ever heard of Selah and I said no, what's that. Kristen began desperately and I mean really trying to persuade me into moving in with Todd and Angie and I just couldn't  be talked into going to live with people that I didn't know. When I told my grandpa about it he thought they must be a cult and I had better not even think about it. (That cracks me up to think about him saying  that now) The evening after her phone call will be a memory instilled in my mind for as long as I live.  It was a beautiful, I was in the back yard playing with the girls, there was a soft breeze whisping through our hair. The three of us had dresses on because we had attended a wedding that afternoon. Savannah and Madelynn's giggles and angelic smiles while chasing around a little pink ball were my inspiration for looking up to multicolored sunset sky and thanking God for all I had and asking for guidance. An overwhelming, indescribable feeling came over me that I could not ignore. He was speaking to me. I felt paralyzed but safe. Once the moment passed I walked straight into the house and told "A", who was there for a visit, that I wanted to move in with those "people".  He looked at me like I was crazy. He told me I was nuts to take my girls and move in with strangers and took it very personal because that would mean that I would not be moving in with him. My response was, "It's not about you". 

                   That week I put my notice in at my job that I had just started, packed up as many of my things as I could, and never once felt the need to look into who Todd and Angie Smith were.  I told no one except my Mom and about three friends that I was leaving. I didn't wan t Jason to find out and try to stop me. I knew how bad his drinking had become and couldn't take any chances in him coming over obliterated which would lead to getting into another confrontation. Also, I knew if I saw him and he wasn't drunk and he asked me to stay, I don't think I would have had the courage or heart to take his children and leave. I spoke to Angie for the first time the day before I was supposed to leave. Her voice was soothing and  her encouraging words and stress free attitude brought comfort to me at such a stressful time. That night I woke up and to a gasping, blue Madelynn and raced her to the emergency room so she could receive a breathing treatment. I was there with her until 4a.m. and still have no explanation what happened. They thought it was Croup but she was fine the day before and fine the day after. The day I left, I had to finish packing, say goodbye to everything I knew and had planned to leave in the night so no one would see me go and so the girls could sleep on the way. On about seven ours of sleep in the last seventy-two, I left at 2:30 in the morning to make the nine hour drive.  As I drove out of town, leaving all I knew into the unknown with tears streaming down my face all that came to mind was "Farewell my love".    


About a hundred miles down the road Savannah, who was doing her best to fight going to sleep, said "Mom, what is God doing?" This caught me off guard at first because we did not attend church regularly before we came to Tennessee, we said grace before dinner sometimes but Savannah had never asked me questions about God during a normal day. So her asking in the middle of the night while driving down the highway to live with strangers having never left the state of Michigan makes perfect sense right? What God was doing was the last thing I expected.  It's hard to describe my arrival to the Smith's house because I was so emotionally and physically drained that I don't remember much from the first week I was here. I can recall being thankful that they weren't weirdos that lived in a cult. But I had maintained a peaceful feeling about coming to them since the moment in the back yard so hadn't really been to worried about that anyway. The following weeks were filled with rest, something I forgot about, and a lot of self reflection. I was like a sponge, soaking up all I could from the very Biblically knowledgeable people that I was blessed to come to know. I spent hours reading the bible at night, crying my eyes out. That was my new coping skill, and a humbling one. I learned the story of Audrey and it moved me, she has done so much for so many. I watched as Todd and Angie and other couples that I met here set an example of what a marriage is supposed to look like, and they talked to me about what God really wants a marriage to be.  Angie sets a profound example of how a wife is supposed to conduct herself and shown me what a strong christian woman looks like. One night I sat and talked to Todd and listened to words pour out of his mouth that were so beautiful about his wife that I realized how a good husband was supposed to treat his wife.  For the first time in years, I started to feel like I was worth something. I listened to a man named Blake Bergstrom preach so passionately and clearly about Jesus at Cross Point the second week I was here that I could finally grasp the sacrifice that Jesus made for us. I walked into Cross Point thinking I was a believer and I walked out knowing I truly did believe.  I was saved. 



About three weeks after my stay with Todd and Angie, I reluctantly moved out with "A". Things quickly began to unravel. I knowingly moved out knowing that it was not in God's plan for me to go but I couldn't be sure without seeing for myself. It lasted a long six days before I packed up and came back to Todd and Angie's. I so thankful that they welcomed me back with open arms and said they knew I would be back anyway. It was that week that I called Jason began to try to connect with him again. Even if it didn't work out I made a promise to God and myself that from that point on I would be the wife that I vowed to be and as long as there was a breath in my marriage, I would not give up. The kind of wife that's pleasing to God the kind of wife that doesn't view wedding vows as "implied tasks".  Jason, to say the least, was not doing well. After he found out we were gone he had tried to quit drinking to "change his stars" and come find us but ended up in the hospital while trying to detox himself. I talked to him everyday until I went up to Michigan to visit my sick Grandfather and it was that weekend that we spent every spare minute in three beautiful days that we could together. We talked about our mistakes, we talked about our long lost dreams and for the first time in a very long time we shared our feelings with each other sober and sincerely.  It was magical. I wanted to bring him back with me so badly but the timing was wrong and I knew he wasn't ready. I had gone against what God was telling me too many times before to chance loosing him, so I left  without him again. This time with the assurance that we would be together at God's will. 

The wait was agonizing. It was impossible for Jason to stay sober in the environment that he was in even with all my encouragement. Until finally it happened, Todd and Angie agreed to put him on a bus and get him out of there. He left similar to the way I did, packing and moving his things in the night so no one would talk him out of it, and telling no one of his plans to leave. He got on a bus at night and rode over night, having no care of where he was going just as long as his family was at the end of the ride. And we were. We were blessed to have a pasture at our church offer to have Jason stay with their family until we could get our ducks in a row. So here we are, together after years of turmoil happy and more in love than we have ever been. Don't get me wrong, things are not perfect. He is still struggling to find steady employment, our house in Michigan is in foreclosure, we live in separate houses and we are in intense counseling. But as I have learned, as long as you are doing what is good and right, the lord will provide.  I am so proud of Jason he is over a month sober now and still going strong. He attends church with us every Sunday, God is doing some amazing things with him. There aren't words that would do any justice for the abundant amount of grace that the Lord has bestowed on my family. two days ago, at 9:30a.m. my husband and I were scheduled to stand in a court room in Michigan and finalize our divorce. Instead, we were celebrating our blessed union in marriage.  




  

               
   

453 comments:

  1. Do you think I could skip my recess duty to read this right now?!?! Boy oh boy would I love to!!! Okay, as soon as I have a free minute, without my 2nd graders, I will!!!

    Can't wait! :)
    I'll be back!!!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Wow! What a testimony! Praise the Lord.

    ReplyDelete
  3. You have begun a journey on the right path. I pray that God will continue to be a guiding force in your life (lives). Angie & Todd are amazing people who are living their faith.
    B in Brentwood, TN

    ReplyDelete
  4. I'm so proud of you! Continue to follow God and not your heart and you will receive blessings beyond measure. I can't wait to follow on this journey with you.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Oh thank you for sharing your story, Candice. What a beautiful picture of redemption! I needed that encouragement today as I have been struggling with God today trying to reconcile the unspeakable pain in this world with His goodness.

    ReplyDelete
  6. What an incredible story! I am certain that God has enormous plans for you and your family. I'll keep you all in my prayers!!!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Tears streaming down my face. Isn't God amazing!?!

    ReplyDelete
  8. I am so proud of you! It is hard to follow God's will sometimes, even as a so called "mature" Christian. I am so glad to call you my sister in Christ. I will pray for you, your family, and your marriage.

    Cheryl

    ReplyDelete
  9. Congratulations! Absolutely beautiful story of redemption. Praise God, I am completely in awe of Him right now. May He continue to use you through this blog and bless your faith and commitment! I'll be watching your story unfold and celebrating and praying!

    ReplyDelete
  10. Thank you so very much for sharing. This truly has been an inspiration and blessed me. I will be praying for your beautiful family. Keep looking to the Lord.

    ReplyDelete
  11. That is amazing. I am so happy for you and your journey! I will be praying for your family!

    ReplyDelete
  12. May God bless you and continue to hold you in his arms. Lean on him for strength at all times. I will pray for you and Jason.

    Thank you for sharing your story. It took real courage.

    Blessings,
    Sandwich

    ReplyDelete
  13. Amazing! Welcome to the family!

    ReplyDelete
  14. Amen and Amen! The tears just flow...Candice, what a beautiful depiction of grace and redemption. I am so thankful that you have chosen to share your story with us. We have been praying for this dear friend of Angie's, and I know the prayers will continue now that we have met this beautiful 'C'.

    ReplyDelete
  15. Laura Wheatley SmithSeptember 16, 2009 at 1:31 PM

    Thank you so much for bravely sharing your testimony, and praise our awesome God for revealing Himself so mightily in both you and the Smith family!! I can't wait to read more, Candace - please know what an inspiration you are! I will be praying for you, Jason, and your sweet little girls.

    ReplyDelete
  16. Wow what a great story...God has big plans for you! Thanks for sharing! Stay strong and continue to lean on him and he will make your path straight!

    ReplyDelete
  17. Can I start with your first untruth. You are a prolific writer and have an amazing testimony to share. Thank you for revealing yourself as you have.

    My prayers go out to you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  18. Thanks so much for sharing your story. I hope that you get the happy ending that you deserve.

    I'll be praying for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  19. Do you realize that you just shared an incredibly powerful story of hope? HOPE. I wish the very best for you and your family as you continue this journey toward healing!

    ReplyDelete
  20. Wow. Amazing story of Gods grace and love. I will be praying for your family. =)

    ReplyDelete
  21. I LOVE marriage reconciliation stories. I just threw my parents a 25 year anniversary party. They made it by God's grace after 10 years of hardship. I'll be praying for your first 25 years and many more after that. Thanks for sharing! :)

    ReplyDelete
  22. What an amazing story of God's grace. I will pray for you as I have in the past. I cannot imagine the pain you have been through or what the road ahead looks life from your perspective. So I will pray harder and more often to the One Who can see it all. What a gift you are. What a treasure your story is. Thanks for sharing.

    ReplyDelete
  23. God is good!!! Thank you for sharing your story. It moved me to tears. Thank you. You are strong!

    ReplyDelete
  24. Thank you SO much for sharing your journey. What a powerful story.

    ReplyDelete
  25. Thank you so much for sharing. That was incredible to read and there were tears as I got to the end. What a great God we serve. Praying for you and your family!

    ReplyDelete
  26. What a great story of hope! God is GOOD! I can't wait to see what else is in store!

    ReplyDelete
  27. I can't express how proud I am of you! How blessed you are! How good God is... EVEN in the really challenging marraiges with really challenging spouses. We live in a world of quick 'fixes'... it is a hard journey to not give up but through God, ALL things are possible! Much love from Texas. Michelle

    ReplyDelete
  28. God is SO GOOD! Praising God for your family and I will pray that His hand will continue to be upon you guys.
    Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    ReplyDelete
  29. Isn't God AWESOME!! Words cannot express what a blessing God has poured over your family. I also struggled with my marriage one year ago today and refused to let my husband throw it away. Today, he thanks me for that. Like you said, it is not perfect, but God has His hands on it and I am forever grateful for that! May each day bring you closer to God, your husband, your children and a life full of love!!

    ReplyDelete
  30. Thank you so much for sharing!!! You are going to bless so many (including me) with your honest and open heart.

    ReplyDelete
  31. Wow, lady! That's incredible!!

    I can totally relate to the bad decisions - oh can I ever. I'm so glad that you have such amazing people behind you, supporting you. God is awesome!!

    ReplyDelete
  32. WOW, God is so good! Thank you for sharing your story!!

    ReplyDelete
  33. Wow! Thank you for sharing your story! God is the God of second chances and I am so thankful for that! Marriage is hard and it is work but God will bless you for following Him! Thankful for people like Angie and Todd who are willing to show Christ through their lives! You will have an awesome chance to share God to others that most of us can't because of your story! God has a great purpose for your life!

    ReplyDelete
  34. Oh Candace...I think you wrote beautifully and full of love and forgiveness and Jesus! :)

    I'm so proud of you and your husband and your family!! Keep doing what you know to be right and true according to God's Word and wise Godly counsel!!

    Praying for you "C". It's nice to meet you and I pray God's sweetest blessings over your whole family.

    ((hugs))
    Fran

    ReplyDelete
  35. There you are, "C." I have been praying for you for a few months. So very nice to meet you.
    Crying tears of joy & praise, in Dallas!!
    Love,
    Reese

    ReplyDelete
  36. Candice, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You are being covered with prayer, I'm sure. =)

    ReplyDelete
  37. Praise God! He is definitely at work in your life and your entire family's. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

    ReplyDelete
  38. Thanks so much for sharing your story! You are a testimony to many!!

    you and your family will be in my prayers!

    ReplyDelete
  39. That is the start to a truly amazing story.

    ReplyDelete
  40. Candice, what a testimony. You have certainly touched my heart today. I have a daughter who will graduate in December and Nashville is her top option for a job right now. I pray that if she ends up in Nashville that she will have an occassion to visit your church and meet you and give you a hug from me. My prayers are with you and your FAMILY!
    Lisa

    ReplyDelete
  41. That is, without a doubt, one of the most, if not THE most, beautiful and heart-wrenching testimonies to the love of Jesus I have ever heard in my life. I'd say more, but I'm kind of speechless at the moment.

    Many prayers and love.

    ReplyDelete
  42. I am so pleased for you. I will keep praying for you and your family. x

    ReplyDelete
  43. What an amazing testimony! Thank you so much for sharing it with us, and I look forward to hearing about what God has in store for your family. You will be in my prayers!

    ReplyDelete
  44. "c"...candice, angie and i were chatting the other night and she shared some more of your story with me. i sat and bawled on my end of the computer. your town in michigan is just 10 minutes from mine. my marriage ended!

    i am beyond thrilled for you! obviously God has huge things for you and your family. i am proud that you are following what God wants for your life and so proud of jason for his sobriety.

    your story gives me hope. welcome to the blogging family and welcome, sister, to God's family!!

    ReplyDelete
  45. what an amazing testimony you have! from broken and shattered to saved, healed, and praising God for all things:) Bless you and your family...I'm praying for you all!

    Lisa

    ReplyDelete
  46. Thank you for sharing. I will pray for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  47. What a great testamony that God does work for the good of us. I am so proud of you for putting yourself and children first to get them out of that envriroment. So proud of him for being sober for a month+. God is working to show you all what truly matters!

    I look forward to watching you grow as a family! You will soon have more support than you ever imagine!

    ReplyDelete
  48. Candice,

    Your story is inspiring! Through the many trials and tribulations I have been through personally, one of the many scriptures I held tightly onto - and would repeat in my head over and over was this ...

    "I will turn their mourning into joy, and I will comfort them, and they will rejoice from their sorrow." Jer. 31:13

    God Bless you in your rejoicing! He never gives us anything we can't handle. I am happy to be a follower of your blog, and you will be in our prayers.

    ~Sheena

    ReplyDelete
  49. Candice, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. I am so glad you have found the Lord through your troubles. Stay strong and close to God through these tough times and the joyous ones too. I pray that you and Jason continue to find strength to work on your marraige and that your family will all be together in good time.
    Blessings.

    ReplyDelete
  50. It's nice to finally meet you, Candice! Your story is wonderfully moving and inspirational. Thank you for sharing, and may God continue to uplift you and your husband as you seek His will for your marriage!
    Jen

    ReplyDelete
  51. Candice, I have been praying for you since Angie first mentioned you on her blog. The tears are still coming as I type this. I am so proud of you! What an incredible testimony you have.

    Your story has given me hope today and for that I am so thankful to you for sharing it.

    You go girl! :)

    ReplyDelete
  52. Amazing! So proud of you and so thankful for Angie and Todd! I will be praying for you and look forward to more of God's Story with you! I know He'll do great things! You deserve it!
    http://arewardfromhim.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
  53. Oh Candice. I have goosebumps that I cannot seem to shake. I was not expecting Jason to come back. Only God would put the tailspin on such a sad sad journey.

    My prayers are with you, Jason & your girls as your rebuild your marriage from the dirt up.

    Praise Jesus for the Smiths.

    May you be encouraged on the bad days and praise Him on the good!

    Blessings,
    Katy Reitz

    ReplyDelete
  54. WHat an amazing testimony....thank you for sharing! May God bless you and keep you and your family :)

    ReplyDelete
  55. wow wow wow! GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!

    what an amazing testimony of his grace and love for us. i have been following angie's story for a while now. i've heard about you and have been curious as to what your story is. i have a feeling what i read today is only the beginning! may god continue to bless you and your husband, and the girls as well. it's not always easy, but seek him (the lord) with all your heart and he will lead you to paths of righteousness. thank you for sharing your story of hope! i look forward to reading the next post.

    jeremiah 29:11 "for i know the plans i have for you," declares the lord. "plans to prosper you, not to harm you. plans for a future, and a hope!"

    southern love and prayers from alabama

    ReplyDelete
  56. You are so brave. For so so many reasons. Blessings over you and your sweet family!

    ReplyDelete
  57. Praise God. I love to see God's handiwork. He is absolutely unbelievable, isn't he?? Keep following Him because as awesome as all this is I know He has even more in store for you! He is JUST THAT GOOD! :)

    ReplyDelete
  58. Candice,
    It is so nice to 'meet' you! Thank-you so much for sharing your story, your honesty and transparency will help others - without a doubt.
    Praying for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  59. Thank you for sharing straight from the deepest places of your heart. I am so encouraged by what all you have written. I will be praying for you and Jason! God is so good. Keep blogging!

    Jennifer in Ohio!

    ReplyDelete
  60. Praise the Lord for redemption and forgiveness and His grace and mercy. Your story is amazing and I cannot wait to hear more of all that our God is doing in your life and your marriage. God bless you.

    ReplyDelete
  61. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. It's a beautiful testimony that I believe will touch many people. I look forward to seeing God's hand work out all the details according to His plan for you all. Your family will be in my prayers. May He continue to hold you and bless you! :)

    ReplyDelete
  62. Hi, Candice. I'm Marla. I know you don't know me, but I feel like I know you after hearing Kristen talk so much about you--and the miracle God performed in your family's life.

    I'll never forget Kristen calling me and telling me about her "client" who desperately needed help. Did I know anyone near Nashville who she and her girls could stay with? I immediately posted it on twitter and facebook. And Candice, if you only knew how many people said, "Me! I can help! Just tell me how!" So many people.

    Angie told me to call her, and something (God!) told me to do it before anything else. We had never talked on the phone before, and I was so struck by her openness and honesty. And her complete willingness to let the three of you stay with her for as long as you needed to.

    I've been praying for you, and I'm THRILLED with what God has done. I know you strengthened Kristen's faith in an INCREDIBLE way. Can't wait to see what God has in store for all four of you!!

    Hugs!!

    ReplyDelete
  63. So awesome and so nice to 'meet you. God is so full of grace and mercy!! I will pray for you and Jason. God will restore your marriage and it will be better than ever!!! Praying for you both and your beautiful daughters!

    ReplyDelete
  64. What an amazing story! I know that this is such an encouragement to so many people:) God's grace is so evident in your life. You and your family are in my prayers:)

    ReplyDelete
  65. With tears streaming down my face I want to say that I have prayed for "C" since the day Angie mentioned you! I'm so excited to see God work
    in your life and I pray that your relationship with him and Jason only get deeper!

    ReplyDelete
  66. beautiful! beautiful God, beautiful family, beautiful YOU!

    ReplyDelete
  67. What an amazing and awesome God we serve!! This is wonderful, always keep the faith. Thanks so much for sharing your story!!

    ~Jennifer

    ReplyDelete
  68. What an amazing testimony! Keep strong in the Lord and your faith! God will work out all of the stepping stones along your path together in marriage...

    Amen!

    ReplyDelete
  69. What a wonderful writer you are! Thanks for sharing this. Mymarriage isn't great right now...and I'm standing for it. So good to hear you on the right track. Jesus does indeed save.
    Keep posting. What a testimony!

    ReplyDelete
  70. What a beautful journey God has in store for you! Thank you for sharing it with us.

    ReplyDelete
  71. Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing your story. I will be praying for your precious family!

    ReplyDelete
  72. What a sweet story of grace.. and so so encouraging. Thank you for sharing.. :)

    ReplyDelete
  73. WOW!!! What a miraculous and truly incredible journey you have been on. The LORD is so good and constantly faithful.

    Not to mention, what a BLESSING the Smith family was. I love how God works. :) I'm just so thankful that the opportunity arose for you and the girls to move in with them. I couldn't imagine any better family for that to have happened with. Todd, Ang, and the girls are an incredible example of Christ's love for us.

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I will continue praying for you, Jason, Savannah, and Madelynn. This family of believers that you are surrounded by will continue to be with you and walk right by your side.

    Many Blessings, Candice!
    It was an honor to finally "meet" you and your family. I look forward to reading more.

    Jess :)

    ReplyDelete
  74. Thanks so much for sharing your story Candice. After having been in a similar situation, I can assure you that your marriage is worth the work. May God continue to bless you.
    Love,
    Jenifer

    ReplyDelete
  75. Your story of redemption is truly written by God. Thank you for your transparency in sharing your story. God bless you, Jason, and your beautiful little girls!

    ReplyDelete
  76. What an amazing story! WoW!! Thank you so much for sharing your heart and your journey with us. I'm so thankful for the family we have in Christ! Praying God will continue to bless you and your family as you seek Him. (Oh, and I think you wrote beautifully!!)
    ~Jenn~

    ReplyDelete
  77. Aww, that made me all teary eyed. :) So happy for all you have found over the last few weeks and months. You're an example yourself, you know. :) Can't wait to follow your journey, hope you'll continue to share your story in time.

    ReplyDelete
  78. Beautiful, heartfelt story. Thank you for sharing it...May God's peace, grace. and love continue to lead you and your family home...

    ReplyDelete
  79. what a beautiful story about how God is moving and working in your life. may you continue to grow in your faith and may you grow in love in your marriage. praying for you on your new path.

    take care!

    ReplyDelete
  80. What a beautiful story. Thanks so much for sharing and opening your heart. You are an encouragement and I can't wait to read more about how God is working in your lives.

    ReplyDelete
  81. What an amazing journey you have been on and will continue to travel on. I'm so thankful that God brought you and your family to Todd and Angie. I will pray for you - from a fellow Michigander.

    ReplyDelete
  82. Candice,
    I am so proud of you. God bless you. I can totally relate to your story as I have lived some of what you are going through. I think we would be great in Real Life Friends! Continue on girl! :)

    ReplyDelete
  83. What a journey! I am so glad you decided to share your life with us. I hope and pray that you and your family can continue on this path. What wonderful people Todd and Angie are!

    ReplyDelete
  84. Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. I have some issues of my own that I am struggling with right now and your post gives me hope! Thanks again for sharing!! Many blessings to you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  85. This is so amazing! Thank you so much for sharing your story!

    Lord, please continue to bless Candice and Jason and their holy union before You. Pour out Your grace and Spirit upon them. Protect, nourish, and bless the two precious little girls. We thank and praise You for being the God of reconciliation!

    ReplyDelete
  86. You have a beautiful story Candice! I hope and pray that your journey continues to be a blessed one! Your girls are beautiful! So glad that you've had the opportunity for this change. :)

    ReplyDelete
  87. Your story is moving and a great testimony for the Lord. I pray that He continues to work in your lives.

    ReplyDelete
  88. You are truly blessed. I, too, suffered terribly in 2008 with a husband on the path to destruction. I admire your strength because I understand how tired it can all make you and the feeling of just giving up takes over. My husband and I reconnected and renewed our wedding vows after only 5 years of marriage. God has a plan as it made our relationship as solid as concrete. You are so lucky to have God put Angie in your life. I had followed Angie's blog since the beginning and she was my inspiration during my hard times. She led my heart toward the Lord I never had. She emailed a prayer to me and I too think she is an angel working on earth for OUR GOD! Good luck to you and your beautiful family.

    ReplyDelete
  89. beautiful. thank you so much for sharing and for being an inspiration...

    ReplyDelete
  90. I can only say ALL praise and glory can only go to our great God! Bless your family as you continue on this journey of redemption. Keep Clinging to HIM. Praying for you sister.
    In Christ, b

    ReplyDelete
  91. Candice you are beautiful, inside and out! I praise God for you and for your story. I will be praying His abundant blessings on your marriage and family.

    ReplyDelete
  92. It's a brand new day, isn't it? God is good, Candice, and make no mistake, his people are covering you in prayer. I am so happy that things are coming together for your family, many prayers that it continues.
    I know how it feels to be lost, and how overwhelming it is when you finally figure out just how lost you are. Sigh. But you can't lose God, you're in his hand every moment, I'm so glad we both figured that out. :)

    ReplyDelete
  93. Wow. I cannot wait to see your story keep unfolding and see God continue His work to transform you and your precious family. Thank you for opening your heart and allowing us all to know you.

    ReplyDelete
  94. So glad to get to know you. Your story is amazing, inspiring, and a needed reminder of God's grace and faithfulness. SO proud of you Candice!!! Look forward to hearing more and getting to know you better.

    ReplyDelete
  95. WOW! What an amazing story! It is so incredible to hear how is working in your life and how others are coming around your family and loving on you. God is SO good!!!

    ReplyDelete
  96. Amen and Amen! You have come so far, and I know there are even greater blessings to come!

    ReplyDelete
  97. Congratulations, on one beautiful and amazing testimony. I cannot wait to see how God continues to work in the lives of you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  98. God is always good and He is working in such BIG ways in your life, I just know it! Just imagine the life of love and grace you will be able to demonstrate for your sweet girls as you come through this fire totally refined. I am honored to read your story and pray for your family. Keep Christ as the shining star in your life and continue to watch the blessings, grace and love abound. Thank you for sharing and for the record, you are a very gifted writer! :) Be blessed today!

    ReplyDelete
  99. Psalm 34:8,9 (The Message)
    8 Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—
    how good God is.
    Blessed are you who run to him.

    9 Worship God if you want the best;
    worship opens doors to all his goodness.

    I pray that you keep your eyes continually on Him, the Creator of all good things!

    ReplyDelete
  100. Oh, Candice, I just read your testimony and there were so many times when I thought, 'Is she talking about herself or my life?'

    My husband and I also went through some very similar situations. We have been back together and happy - so happy - since December 2007. I could not be happier for you and can't wait to see what else God has in store for your family.

    Casi

    ReplyDelete
  101. "thank you" sounds so simple... and yet, that's what I want most to say. thank you for being brave, for being so transparent and honest with your story. My husband and I were seperated for a few months and have just gotten back together - and I am so appreciative of your candid telling of your story. A marriage can be restored, but it is a process - a painful process that hopefully scrapes off the bumps and uglies, and reveals a heart of hope. thank you, thank you!

    ReplyDelete
  102. Your family will be in my prayers Today and as often as I can remember in the days, months and years to follow. May God bless you. Danaly

    ReplyDelete
  103. Thank you for talking so openly about your life story, I know God has soo much more to add to your story! God bless

    ReplyDelete
  104. God is great! God is good! Glory to God! I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you are given the strength and courage to never give up hope. Ask Him...and it will be given.

    ReplyDelete
  105. what a beautiful love story. thanks for sharing.

    ReplyDelete
  106. Thanks for being so willing to share your story, what a glorious praise to the great redemption of our God!!!

    ReplyDelete
  107. Candice, you have taken my breath away....thank you for sharing your story....from one Michigan girl to another, stay strong and stay the course :-)

    ReplyDelete
  108. I think that God's perfect restoration of marriage may be one of the biggest miracles he is working on our country right now. Thank you for sharing your story. I kept reading with tears in my eyes knowing that not so long ago my marriage was also restored by the ultimate healer!! I am so happy to know that I am not alone :) Hugs and prayers...

    ReplyDelete
  109. What a beautiful testimony to God's grace and love for us! Your strength is an inspiration! I will pray for continued healing of your beautiful family! {{{HUGS}}}

    ReplyDelete
  110. I totally love to hear stories about this and how God has been at work! Praying for you all as you continue to work on your marriage. Continue to trust God. He will never, ever let you down!! Thank you so much for sharing your story! My heart is just overflowing at the moment. What a mighty God we serve!!

    ReplyDelete
  111. You've touched my heart and I'm going to share your blog with a couple I know whose marriage is in trouble to show what God can do!!!

    ReplyDelete
  112. Thank you for sharing. It was amazing to read how God has worked in your life.
    You are strong and I admire that.

    ReplyDelete
  113. What a beautiful story God is writing for you. I sit here with tears in my eyes, amazed at the work that God is doing in your lives. Praise God for his redemption and grace. I will be praying for you and your family as you continue to heal and seek him. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    ReplyDelete
  114. What an amazing testimony you have! The testimonies of the saints are powerful and I know your's will be a blessing to many.

    ReplyDelete
  115. Hi Candice! I too am from Michigan. :-) Your testimony is powerful. Praying for you and Jason and your two girls. God is good. You couldn't have stayed with a better family. God is using Angie and Todd in amazing ways.

    ReplyDelete
  116. I have never been prouder of you... oh wait yes there was one moment... the first moment I held you in my arms and saw your first smile. My heart filled with joy... I love you
    XXOO

    ReplyDelete
  117. Keep telling your story. Satan will try to whisper to you that its not worth anything but in its own way it is so very beautiful. Only God can fashion a story of that such. Keep your eyes on above. And can I just say that I am so jealous that you got to love with the Smith's. =) Enjoy your blessings. They are many if you just believe!

    ReplyDelete
  118. Congrats on the new beginning with your walk with God and your new marriage. Thank you for sharing your story and journey with us. Praying for you always.

    ReplyDelete
  119. It is such a blessing to read your vulnerable words, to hear you tell your story from your heart, and to let us all in on God's work in your life.

    Thank you for boldly posting this and I am so deeply grateful for Todd & Angie and how they display Christ's loves and open arms to you and your family when you were in need. Your story is so encouraging - nothing and nobody is too far gone that God cannot fix it. He can do ANYTHING!!! Thanks for sharing your testimony.

    ReplyDelete
  120. Oh Candice...what an amazing testimony!!!We will be praying for your family...I am so glad that you all are choosing to follow God's path for your lives. I have been through a divorce and know how broken and destructive it is. What beautiful girls you have! God is re-writing your story!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  121. AMAZING...I am inspired by your strength.
    Thank you for sharing, I know it must have been tough.

    ReplyDelete
  122. When times are good, He is with us. When times are bad, He is with us. His grace is all we need. He also gives us people to help us along the way. How blessed you were that He sent Angie and her husband.

    Oh how much Jesus loves you that He would do these things for you...for us.

    Your story has blessed me and encouraged me to reach out to others in need.

    Thank you for being so brave.

    ReplyDelete
  123. I've been reading about you for awhile on Angie's blog, and I'm glad to see you telling your own story and starting to sort your life out.

    Looking forward to reading your blog frequently, if you decide to write it regularly. :)

    ReplyDelete
  124. You have sold yourself short...you are an amazing writer. You moved me to tears. Our God is so. good. All the time. I don't know you but I'm so proud of you for making some hard choices! May God continue to bless you!

    By the way, I love the song on here. I have it and love it.

    Thank you for sharing your story.

    ReplyDelete
  125. Oh my dear sweet Candace, your story is so powerful. What a story of grace and mercy!! It is going to be so great to follow your love story with the LORD. He loves you so child.

    Isaiah 43:2 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

    You are safe in the arms of Jesus, dear one.

    Love and Blessings to you,
    Dawn

    ReplyDelete
  126. What a powerful story of God's grace and love. Tell it to everyone you know. May he continue to bless your family in ways that you never imagined!!

    ReplyDelete
  127. Candice, God is using you to minister to so many women in this position and to those that aren't as well. I'm so glad that God placed Angie & Todd in your life and that your marriage is a work in progress. Praying for ya'll and welcome to the blog world!

    ReplyDelete
  128. You are an amazing woman! God Bless!

    ReplyDelete
  129. Wow - God is AWESOME!! I'll be praying! ~ Bethany

    ReplyDelete
  130. Wow, what an amazing story! You are such a strong woman, and the Lord will indeed bless you and your family for following His will and His path. I'll be praying for you and Jason and your girls. I kinda feel like I love you already... :)

    ReplyDelete
  131. God is definitely an awesome God!! Our family will be praying for you and the journey ahead.

    ReplyDelete
  132. There seriously are no words for this!!!!! Every word was beautiful and had God written all over it!!!! We love you!!!!! :)

    ReplyDelete
  133. You have grabbed my heart! My husband and I were going down that same road. Last Jan. we decided to try church as a "last chance" for our marriage. We started counseling with an amazing Christian counselor and are more in love with God and eachother because of it! God saved us and our marriage! I am praying for you, Jason, and those 2 beautiful girls! Much Love--Sarah

    ReplyDelete
  134. What a humbling story. Makes me appreciate my husband, kids and stable family life more than ever. Thank you for sharing with us.

    ReplyDelete
  135. WOW! What a beautiful story. And the best part is...God isn't finished with His purpose for your life. It sounds like He is just getting started. Isn't providence wonderful?

    ReplyDelete
  136. Candice...your strength, your transparency, and your faith amazes me. TO GOD BE THE GLORY! GREAT things HE has done!

    ReplyDelete
  137. That is an amazing story...thank you for sharing it with us! I am praying for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  138. I don't know quite what to say. You have been so brave. Had "Bless the Broken Road" come to me while reading your entry. Looking forward to hearing more of your journey.

    ReplyDelete
  139. Hi Candice!! I am so happy to finally meet you! :) It's so amazing to be praying for someone you have never met, whose circumstances you don't know (and never know if you will!) and then suddenly see just how much God has been working in their life!! I am so blessed to hear the spectacular ways He's been holding your hand, and to see how massively He is working in your marriage!! I am so proud of you and the way you wanted to work on your marriage when it probably would have been easier to just throw your hands up in the air. And what an amazing testimony to your little girls of how much your marriage is worth to both of you to resurrect it back from where it was at one point, and how much they are worth to both of you to put your family back together. I can't even express how very very happy I am for you!! God bless you!!!

    ReplyDelete
  140. My husband and I were separated for over 3-1/2 years and God has also restored our marriage. My husband also had become a person I did know ... not through alcoholism, but through depression. Praise God that He loves marriage and blesses those who perservere! God is so good!

    ReplyDelete
  141. Praise God! That is awesome!!! Thank you so much for sharing your amazing testimony. What a Mighty God we serve! Praying for you and your family! :)

    ReplyDelete
  142. what a beautiful spiritual foundation you and Jason are creating for your girls. ALL, ALL, ALL the hard work will be--is already--worth it, and praise be to God for His relentless pursuit! may many be impacted by yours and Jason's stories.

    ReplyDelete
  143. As a fellow christian you are now a part of this big family of sisters and brothers who are praying for you and believing with you in your restored marriage and joyful new beginning. God is so powerful!! Hallelujah!

    ReplyDelete
  144. Thank you for being so open and honest. So many people wouldn't share a story like this out of fear of what others would think but it's because of folks like you that people facing what you have faced can find courage. God bless you.

    ReplyDelete
  145. Thank you for sharing your heart and for giving God all the glory. All things are possible through Him! What a tremendous testimony of that. Thank you for the reminder you gave me today- that He is capable of anything and everything!
    You are a precious spirit and I vow to pray for you and your family as you continue to work hard and make full reconciliation.
    Praise the Lord!

    ReplyDelete
  146. I am truly blessed by your testimony and appreciate so much your willingness to be open and encourage others in similar situations. Your obedience to God in living the life He has called you to is an amazing example of His redemption-THANK YOU! I will be praying for your family.

    ReplyDelete
  147. What an awesome, wonderful testimony! Thank you so much for sharing!

    ReplyDelete
  148. What an amazing testimony! God is so Good! Thank You for sharing your story. I know it will minister to many! Praying for you and your family.

    Blessings,
    Karen

    ReplyDelete
  149. Candice, I read Angie's blog and came over to read your testimony. I have chills. This story echos so much of my childhood. My mother has a similar testimony. Except that she was raised in a Christian home and disobeyed God by marrying my father. The glaring difference in your and my mom's stories is that my dad never came. I was five-years-old the last time I saw my dad. He still lives in Houston and we're in Pittsburgh. He missed everything and worst of all, he never cared to come for us (my brother and I). Although, I've forgiven my dad and moved on, I still carry the pain of knowing my earthly father didn't love me and my mom enough to give up the destructive lifestyle he was caught in.

    Anyway, I just am so thrilled that Jason is with you now and that God is working in your marriage. You and your daughters are blessed to have him back and God WILL restore you all. I can't wait to hear Jason's testimony when this is all said and done.

    As for me, I grew up and married a wonderful Christian man who exemplifies what a Christian husband and father should be. God has shown me that father's do care and do love their daughters to the end of the earth. God used my own marriage to restore my faith. I pray that Savannah and Madelynn don't have to wait for their "prince" to find out what God has in store for couples who love Him. I pray that they see His love and restoration in you and Jason. Thank you for sharing this today.

    ReplyDelete
  150. What an amazing journey you are on. I'm sitting at work crying. God is so good. I needed to read this today. As most of us do, I also have some things going on and knowing that I'm not alone in this journey helps more than you will ever know. I pray that God continues to bless you and your family and guide you back to love. Many blessings...

    ReplyDelete
  151. I needed to read this more than you know. THANK YOU for sharing. HE is faithful...

    ReplyDelete
  152. What an incredible story. You are a true inspiration to all woman, married or not. Thank you for sharing.

    ReplyDelete
  153. What a powerful story, I can tell you from experience that committing to be a submissive, supporting godly wife will lead to so many blessings...even falling and staying in the best kind of love with your husband! It's worth the fight, sweetie, keep fighting!! I'll be praying for ya!

    ReplyDelete
  154. May God bless you and your husband and your little girls. May He renew your love for each other and give you peace.

    ReplyDelete
  155. Candice,
    So many people will be blessed and encouraged by your story. It took amazing strength to do what you have done, but to share it took even more. Keep in mind that discouragement will come at times. Don't let it hurt you...it is only an opportunity to prove to yourself that you are on the right track! Congratulations on how far you've come, and God's blessings as you continue on!!

    ReplyDelete
  156. candice i can not tell you how your words and your story have moved me! i have waited with anticipation to read your story as angie had promised us that one day we would know it. i don't know you but you have touched me today greatly with being open about your story. i look forward to reading you blog often. i will be praying for you and your husband and your 2 beautiful girls! God Bless you! erin

    ReplyDelete
  157. What a beautiful story! I'm so glad that you have decided to share you journey. I know lives will be touched.

    ReplyDelete
  158. So nice to finally meet you ~ I have been praying for you ever since Angie mentioned you. Thank you for your courage and transparency in sharing your story. I have no words to describe how touched I was by your testimony. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
    Your sister in Christ,
    Davina
    Phoenix, AZ

    ReplyDelete
  159. Candice, your story speaks to powerfully of God's grace, His redemption, His love. Thank you for sharing. I cried as I read this...my husband and I have been struggling over the past few months and reading your testimony...God spoke to me, encouraged me to continue to seek His face and never give up. Thank you for sharing your story with us and allowing Christ to love on us through your words.

    marcy

    ReplyDelete
  160. What an amazing story God has given you! You ARE an amazing woman to have come through this ride. I will pray for you, Jason, and your beautiful girls. I'm moved today after reading your story at OUR God. Thank you for sharing, God bless you "C" T in Brentwood TN

    ReplyDelete
  161. What a great story... I have mad bad choices in life too. It is great to hear that you are working on making your life based on the Godly choices now!! Bless you! What a true blessing you will be and praise the Lord that Todd and Angie were willing to take you in!! GOD IS GOOD...ALL THE TIME!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  162. Stay strong girl! I have never met you, nor do I know you but I'm praying for you! Your story echoes my parent's story. After 10 years of being married to an alcoholic husband, my dad finally turned his life over to Jesus and became the man my mother and I needed. Jason can do it too, just continue to seek Christ and work to live your life in his image. My parents just celebrated their 30 year anniversary and I just celebrated my first. Jesus loves you and so do all of us in the blog community!

    ReplyDelete
  163. amazing story... you are so brave and strong

    ReplyDelete
  164. What a beautiful and inspiring story! I am so glad you have introduced yourself, Angie has been busting at the seams to have you tell your story and I can tell she and Todd are so proud of you! I will pray for your family, and I will follow your story. I wish you all the best!

    ReplyDelete
  165. I am very happy for you, my husband is an alcoholic and he will not admit it and when he has too much vodga he also gets very mean, not abusive physcially, just verbally and I hate it. So now he is moving into his own room. Just sad. But I am glad you have a happy ending and I'm praying that he will remain sober.

    ReplyDelete
  166. Wow Candice! I am amazed by your strength and your devotion to your marriage! I will be praying for you and Jason and the girls. And I am so thankful with you that God placed Angie & Todd in your life.
    I'm really just so blessed to have read your story. I look forward to hearing more.

    ReplyDelete
  167. What an inspiration you are. God is SO faithful and so GOOD-all the time. I am so incredibly proud of you, what an amazing woman of faith you are. Everyone has trials, everyone goes through conflicts but God's abounding grace always amazes me and quiets my soul. I will be praying for you and your gorgeous family. You are SO MUCH STRONGER than you ever imagined, I'm sure of it! Keep looking up.

    Your sister in Christ,
    Kristin

    ReplyDelete
  168. I'm always thrilled to hear of God's miracles in marriages. Different circumstances, but He worked one in mine as well. I will never be the same. :) Thank you for sharing your story!

    Praying for you and your family and I look forward to following your story.

    Blessings,
    Jill A

    ReplyDelete
  169. What a wonderful story...keeping your precious family in my prayers!

    ReplyDelete
  170. Hi Candice! I have been reading Angie's blog for quite some time now, and then today, she had a link for your blog.

    I can't imagine the pain you have been through, but please don't feel any shame or even embarrassment. Your story, while it is filled with pain and hurt, it is also filled with redemption and hope!

    I am over joyed to hear that you and your husband are in the process of working things out and allowing the Lord to work on both of you! I get teary eyed when I hear of people working on their marriage instead of walking away.

    I wish I were there to give you a huge hug but instead, I want you to know that I am praying for you and will continue to do so!


    Keep looking to the Jesus!
    Your sister in Christ,
    ariane

    ReplyDelete
  171. I will continue to pray for you and your family! Looking forward to hearing what Jesus does next!

    May God Bless your obedience to His Word!
    Vicki

    ReplyDelete
  172. you have one amazing story. My husband and I have been close to divorce! We have not. I have faith that if you put the work in, you too will survive this trying time. many prayers

    ReplyDelete
  173. AHH! I don't even know what to say. I'm so thankful God put Angie and Todd in your life. And I am so glad you chose to listen to Him. He knows what we need even when we don't. I am so proud of you for willing to try again with your husband. I can't wait to pray for you both!!! It's great to "meet" you!

    ReplyDelete
  174. What an amazing story and a happy ending. I hope and pray that God continues to bless you. You are already blessed to be apart of Angie's life. I look forward to following your journey.

    ReplyDelete
  175. Praising the Lord for your miraculous journey. May you continue to seek Him in your healing. Praying for your husband's strongholds to be broken completely and that he may truly experience freedom in Christ.

    By the way, your girls are gorgeous. Welcome to the blog world...I will be reading to see how the Lord continue to move in your life.

    ReplyDelete
  176. Wow! What an amazing story. Thank you for sharing it with us. I look forward to following along this magical journey :0)

    Trina and Jophie

    ReplyDelete
  177. Amazing! Thank you for sharing your story! I will pray for you and your family!

    ReplyDelete
  178. Tears flowing as I read your story. You are strong and brave. What a blessing the Smiths are. Thank you for sharing your story. I'll be praying for you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  179. You did it, girl!

    You did what you set out to do with this blog.

    You used it, you used your story, to change a life. I needed, NEEDED, so much to read your words, to read about the hand of God in your life, to read about your sunset moment, and to know, that God is the God He has said He is.

    My God, I pray in thanksgiving, bless you and your beautiful girls.

    ReplyDelete
  180. Hello! I found your blog through marla taviano who posted a link to your blog. Your story is amazing. What a small world--I attend crosspoint and LOVE it! If you need any help getting settled or with childcare or whatever let me know! I would be happy to help out!

    ReplyDelete
  181. Candice,
    Thank you for sharing your story. I have been praying for you since Angie first wrote about you and your girls. I am so happy to see how the Lord is working in your life and your marriage. Please know you are in my prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  182. Candice,

    Your story is so encouraging. What an amazing testament to the Lord's calling in your life. I will pray for your marriage and your family. I'm so excited for what He has in store for you. Keep us up to date!

    ReplyDelete
  183. I am covered in goosebumps and left speechless! Our God is an AWESOME God!! :)

    ReplyDelete
  184. This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  185. What a beautiful story! God is so amazing and so full of the unexpected. Thank you so much Candace, for sharing your journey. So full of redemption and restoration. HE is so awesome!!!

    ReplyDelete
  186. Sweet Candice,

    I am so touched by your words. And what an honor for Todd and Angie to be used as vessels for God to change your life. That's just how much you and your marriage mean to Him.

    Praise God!

    In Christ's Love,
    Lisa

    ReplyDelete
  187. WOW!!!! What a beautiful, uplifting story!
    I would love to see up coming stories!

    ReplyDelete
  188. Congratulations on the courage to work on your marriage! I know that it takes a lot of strength, patience and courage to do so.

    I have been in the same valley that you have been in. I am working my way out of it now.

    Keep working for Christ's will in your life!

    In His Grip,
    Wendy Henderson
    www.bumblebeesandbugladies.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
  189. What an awesome testimony! God does have amazing things in store for you and your beautiful family!! ((Hugs))

    ReplyDelete
  190. "And its when I finally came to that point, that certain crossroads in my life. Where I truly got on my hands and knees face-down and wholly surrendered all that I am to You. When I held out my bloody cut up hands with my shattered and jaded heart and told You it was Yours.

    If You wanted it.

    Unsure if it was fixable or usable anymore, there was no other choice to make. I chose to surrender my dreams, fears, accusations, hurts and insecurities.

    And there was a difference this time. The difference this time was that I did not hold on tightly or hide pieces of my heart. No, it was on the ground, scattered at your feet, for all to see.

    Every piece.

    And that's where love came in.

    Love bent down and cupped my tear-stained face and gently kissed my forehead. He said welcome home my beautiful child, the one I love. And He slowly and gently picked up the pieces of my heart. As He tried to help me stand I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by His grace and compassion. My thoughts were already telling me this was not possible. No one could ever love like this. No one could ever forgive the things I had done, and before I realized it, He scooped me in His arms and began to whisper such sweet things in my ear. As I cried He began to reassure His love for me.

    My weight is no more.

    For love has welcomed me home."

    I wrote this a few weeks ago, your story reminded me of it!

    The ways and works of the Lord are a mystery! :o)

    Yours and Jason's story is incredible. It's a story of trial and pain, but grace and mercy and the Lord it at work! :o)

    And now that you have created a blog, I believe that there are prayer warriors here that will be able to back you and your family up spiritually and begin warring against the schemes of the evil one!

    I'm excited to follow your story.

    Keep your head up. :o) The Lord is with you mighty warrior!

    ReplyDelete
  191. Yea for you and your husband! What an amazing story! With God all things are possible. Many prayers that your marriage continues to grow and be the marriage that you want it to be...and most importantly the marriage that God wants it to be.

    ReplyDelete
  192. I am so glad to read your story! It is truly a testament to God's power and LOVE.
    I can't wait to hear more!

    ReplyDelete
  193. wowza! God is GOOD!!! Thank you for sharing with us and I can't wait to follow you and your family on your journey of healing!!

    ReplyDelete
  194. Wow!!! That is all that I can say.Wow!! God is so awesome. I can't wait to hear more.

    ReplyDelete
  195. Candice, I sat here and read your story, your journey and I cried. God is GOOD.

    Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

    ReplyDelete
  196. Praying for you and your family and your marriage. May continue continue to bless you and show you the way. BIG hugs!

    ReplyDelete
  197. What and incredible story! Praying for you and your marriage!

    ReplyDelete

 

Visit InfoServe for blogger templates